i know what everyone thinks
im always the bad guy who's overreacting and unreasonable.

but i guess they're right to an extent.

and i guess no one knows how i feel.
how confused i am. how i suddenly realised i've lost my status. how foolish i am to think i can get anything i want in the world, without giving enough.

but i 'll say im still pretty much in love now, and its not time for me to let go yet.

i want to focus all on God, for Him to allow the best to happen and for a happy ending eventually, but i do know that i hardly deserve it.