=)mauzy looking bored after a while. hee
thats very pretty sam and ethel.
hamsum boy
daddy and mommy :)
kongkong :)


hee.
twas a good family day
dinner at aunty tammy's place.
hoho
i finally realised that the entire bay family's quite funny
aunty tammy's as animated and dramatic as daddy
hee so twas pretty enjoyable talking to her
=)
was telling her about how i kena-ed everything by daddy for my insensitivity and stuffs
and she replied that wasnt daddy the same. HEEHEE! AH, there you go!

HAHAH and we were discussing noses
i was like
"ohmygoodness, ur nose is so sharp" to aunty tammy.
hee and then the whole discussion on noses begun. hoho

and on aileen
hee she's quite a cute witty little girl. all the little witty comments. which i cant seem to remember, except that she was always leaving the table to go out to feed the dog some charsiew. hee and the little girl came back in, and her dad questioned her

uncle A: "where is the dog"
A: "the dog is outside"
uncle A: "is the gate close?"
A:"no"
uncle A: "so the gate is opened and the dog's outside"
A:"ya"
uncle A: "the gate is opened and the dog's outside."
A:"yes"

and then an
aunty T: "AILEEN FONG"

so aunty tammy goes out to try to get the doggie to go back inside his little space, so she can lock the gate.
ethel goes to help.
aileen's there.
but the doggie runs around

until uncle A comes out and shouts, Go back in!
and boy did that doggie run! heehee
the dog sure knows who's master.

and

me: "aileen u re really tall for a 12 year old, do boys get intimidated by you?"
aileen: "no, i intimidate them."


and uncle alan was going on and on about ratatouille cos they watched it together as a family. haha so i kinda asked him how old he was. hoho :P

at the end of the day, kongkong s the cutest thingy though.
randomly made some comment as i was talking to sam about london
"you girls better make sure that you dont accept any dare to drink beer in london. cannot."
and aunty tammy went "i learnt my lesson since i was 7"

heehee mommy was going on and on about how haggard and how ugly i was.
so i told her "cannot look too good."
and when she told galvin to shave cos the unshaven look makes him look haggard too
he did an adeline
by saying
better look haggard, if not too handsome

HAHAHA Omg. this has gotta be one of the worst blog entries ever. dont really feel inspired to blog. just too many funny things said at aunty T's place. but yea i have a memory of a goldfish. sadness teehee OMG i look like a goldfish too. HAHAHA THE ENORMOUS EYEBAGS hoho

old airporty road hoho

:)

oh i so love these 2 funnynomore morons!

my good o' snugface PAL =)

oooh dokays cos i disowned him

and then defaced him

im about to make an update to an old post because someone s upset about not being mentioned in that particular post.

HOHO

i got black eye rings :( hahaha and A HUGE PIMPLE

SO ANNOYING AND DISGUSTING

cant believe we re flying back in a bit

tis gonna be exciting i hope.

the year ahead.

am dreading loads of stuff.

schools going to be tough

i gotta settle stuff back home.

im going to miss home.

things are going to change

but at the same time, i know im in for a lot of things

its been so long since i ve beeen so happy

and tis a very very nice feeling.

haha not that im a pessimist

but sometimes i really wonder how long i'll be happy

and if i deserve to be happy.

on his supposed success with chatting with j today,

which was pretty much very hilarious.

daddy "do u think i can be a counsellor?"

me "comedian i think can ah."

daddy's favourite words

"teh neh" and "tada"

heehee

Many Christians have a mentality that says, “God, you do right by me, and I’ll do right by you.” Of course, God will always do right by us; but we don’t always know what is right for us.

On how to conquer a difficult trial and glorify God before others in the midst of testing.
see Daniel.

i. First, the heart must be set. Daniel purposed in his heart, making up his mind beforehand that he would not compromise.

ii. The life must be winning. Daniel found favor with his superiors.

iii. Protest must be courteous - Daniel requested. He made a polite request, showing discretion. Making a stand for Jesus Christ does not mean we must be obnoxious.

iv. Self-denial must be sought. Daniel and his friends knew this would cost them something, yet they were willing. “Be ready for a bad name; be willing to be called a bigot; be prepared for the loss of friendships; be prepared for anything so long as you can stand fast by Him who bought you with His precious blood.”

v. The test must be boldly put. "I think that a Christian man should be willing to be tried; he should be pleased to let his religion be put to the test. 'There,' says he, 'hammer away if you like.' Do you want to be carried to heaven on a feather bed? Do you want always to be protected from everybody’s sneer and frown; and to go to heaven as if you were riding in the procession on Lord Mayor’s day?"


Daniel and his friends show us that inner conviction can overcome any outer pressure, and that God-honoring convictions yield God-given rewards.

it was sometime in april
a monday morning.
the monday before the exams.
we met for breakfast
just at the coffeeshop downstairs.
the lady gave me my wrong order
i was super pissed
threw and slammed my plate on the table
and cried.
he looked stunned
but he didnt move
when we walked, he walked ahead. he didnt hold my hand.
i knew the feelings died.
hee its now easier to see how he feels now. and easier for me to see how he felt then
so ohwells. i dont blame him anymore. just wished he could give me the space i tried so hard to give him at that time. besides, he was the one who first asked for space
its easy to move on without him. and easy to be happy.
but i just dont know if its the right thing to do.
because everything i choose to do
seem to be wrong
seem to be frowned upon
but to Cpal
thanksforbeingthere.andforthesupportnomatterhowichoosetodealwiththematter,
but do chide me when the need arises.
thats how we all learn, aint it.
tis a nice rainy monday :)

All I once held dear, built my life upon,

all this world reveres and wars to own,

all I once thought gain I have counted loss,

spent and worthless now compared to this.

Knowing You, Jesus, knowing You.

There is no greater thing.

You're my all, You're the best, You're my joy,

my righteousness; and I love You, Lord.

Now my heart's desire is to know You more,

to be found in You and known as Yours,

to possess by faith what I could not earn,

all surpassing gift of righteousness.

Knowing You, Jesus, knowing You.

There is no greater thing.

You're my all, You're the best, You're my joy,

my righteousness; and I love You, Lord.

Oh, to know the pow'r of Your risen life,

and to know You in Your suffering,

to become like You in Your death,

My Lord, so with You to live and never die.

Knowing You, Jesus, knowing You.

There is no greater thing.

You're my all, You're the best, You're my joy,

my righteousness; and I love You, Lord.

Knowing You, Jesus, knowing You.

There is no greater thing.

You're my all, You're the best, You're my joy, my righteousness;

You're my all, You're the best, You're my joy, my righteousness;

You're my all, You're the best, You're my joy, my righteousness;

and I love You, Lord.

my very nice day with sherry and grace
hurhur when all 3 camwhores come together


hahahha ACT CUTE.



hee yummy bakkut teh
im going to miss it i know!
:D

wah shit the cupcakes are damn nice.
i was so intrigued by the silvery beads :)

paisley & cream! DAMN GOOD
elaine i bring u there one day!

life is strange.
one thing i know for sure
i dont want to lose my friends

have a good trip sherry!
:)
and grace! i LOVE U. sorry im an insensitive wuss. hahaha
but good uknow, i can train u to tahan annoying people
you're bound to encounter such people when u go out to work next time.

i hate myself sometimes
Told dad about it this morning
omg hahaha and really. its time i listen
and hopefully i will change,
right DADDY
dont want to disappoint you over and over again.


hee he said that my character was such that when he tells me something about myself
and somebody else disagrees
i would choose to believe the other person
cos i like to believe what i like to hear
haha i don tknow if its wrong to blog about it.
but

i think its very true
and i ve gotta give dad some credit
if i ever become a better person, its because of daddy
hee what would i do without you dad.
i know u always feel that sometimes i spend too much time with friends and i am neglecting you and stuff
im so sorry. because in a way its true tt i can be so insensitive sometimes, to not bother about stuff in my own ditsy world.
i would have never made it through this tough period after the joel saga, if u hadnt been there to tell me what to do.
if you didnt choose to tell me the hard way
and tell me what i didnt want to hear abt the entire d thing.

im sorry i ll be away for ur birthday and eve's. hee
im coming back in dec dokays. or u guys should come to london. or to aussie. but whatever it is. we will get together again. family's after all top priority.
please dont think that i failed to understand that.
it has always been the most important,
no matter what i ve made it appear to be.

i love you guys.
am so very proud to be part of the bay clan.

hiaks
the day never gets less amusing

j came down on me this morning online
and exclaimed tt i went clubbing and went off with a guy

i really had no clue how to react
just a thank you though
to the person who had to text j to tell him about it
and i know who did it
it was really kind of u to give me extra trouble

when in the first place. its none of anybody's business.
and 2, im not his gf anymore. so why should i be reporting to him.
and its even more amusing, that u told him immediately, as soon as u saw me.

nice one
but
it aint bothering me that much.
but u just officially ruin his day and his weekend
that really wasnt very nice of you.


maybe im getting better at handling this.
or maybe not.



and butter factory yesterday.
was a pretty neat place i think. just not my cup of tea. im a spoilsport! :D
wasnt too bad though. really glad to see my friends going all crazy inside.
sorry though, that i wasnt crazy enough. heh
glad i left early with chong though.

cheers
i miss sherry and grace

RUNS TO U GUYS :)
off to visit grandma me thinks
she s feeling unwell.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
struggling to stay awake
butter factory was pretty neat.

wish i was a little more high though hee
tis not nice to not feeling like moving when everyone else was crazy.
:D

and it was a very good day i d say.
night.

yawns.

lol
and we re talking about beating up wives
and how to deal with shit.
and how to be better people.

:D tis nice to spend time with family :)
yay com ex later with them WHOOPEEE :D


dad complains that i dont give him enough attention
he forgets that
whenever he s talking to us, he doesnt like to listen to what i say
hee


OooH
dad told us a story his colleague told us

there was a rich man who went to this very nice village
and he told the villagers that he wanted monkeys
and for every monkey they caught they would get 10 dollars

and so. the villagers caught the monkeys and got their 10 buckeroos
and hello, the rich man wanted many many much much moremore monkeys
so he told them, "i need monkeys desperately, this time i ll pay u 20 dollars"
and so they caught the monkeys and caught moreeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

and so on and so forth, and then!
the rich man had to go on a little business trip
he exclaimed to the villages
"fee fai fo fum, i smell the blood of an englishman"
haha no he didnt say that.
he said!
"hey hey i need to go on a business trip. i need monkeys more desperately,. this time you get 100bucks for every monkey u catch!"
and so he left!

and there were only a few monkeys left in the village
and the villagers were having great difficulty catching the monkeys

pause, im getting sick of telling the story
unpause.

and anyhows, the rich man's ka kia went up to the villagers,
and told them, that he actually has a lot of monkeys and he would sell them to the villagers for fifty buckeroos
and so the villagers got all the monkeys they could
and ho ho

the rich man nv came back
and the monkeys were actually the same old monkeys they caught

and dokays the story sounds stupid now.
and stop the hoho
chong';s fault.
hohoing is quite addictive




tis a very amusing day :)

From
Living in God's Power

Here's whats WRONG
and counterproductive to the healing process

Snapshot "conventional wisdom on sorrow management"
The six elements

1. Bury your feelings. IF you are hurting, stuff it down. Be sure you dont complicate things and make all your relationships messy with all your sorrow, tears and emotional turmoil.

2. Replace your loss as soon as possible. Turn the page. FIx it quick. Move on. You can deal with your sorrow by getting that new dog, buying a new bike, or finding a new girlfriend.

3. Grieve alone. When you are in the throws of sorrow, dont drag everyone else down with you. Pull yourself together, and when you are with others, grin and bear it.

4. Time will heal your sorrow. Time has a mystical power to magically heals all ills. Just wait and see, everything will be better.

5. Learn to live with regret. Often there is nothing you can do to go back and make things right. Just expect to carry regret and disappointment for the rest of your life.

6. Once you have felt the pain of life, you will learn to buffer yourself. If you are wise, y ou will
put up the necessary defenses and be sure you dont get hurt again.



God's wisdom on sorrow management

1. Be open with your grief. We grieve as those who have a hope that can never be taken away. We have hope in Christ and the promise of heaven. Jesus openly showed His sorrow; we should learn from his example.

2. Review your loss. Dont try to replace your loss immediately; instead, reflect deeply and allow yourself to feel the fullness of the loss.

3. Grieve in community. God's plan was never for us to go through times of sorrow alone. We need to be in community and draw from the love and strength of others. (romans 12:15 ' 1 cor 12:26)

4. The holy spirit of God heals hearts, not time alone. God, by his spirit, is our comforter and counselor. We need to seek Him in the healing process. (2 Cor 1:3-4)

5. Realise you dont have to carry regret for the rest of your life. God can lift the load of regret and guilt. He is the God of new beginnngs.

6. as christ followers, we never lose our ultimate treasure. Although this life can deal us with some harsh blows, Jesus Christ is our ultimate treasure. Nothing can take Him away. WIth this in mind, we dont need to get cynical and hardhearted.

sojourn was really good
i thought i had a mighty good time.
just wished the rest like elaine and chong, could have enjoyed it as much as we did.
was really glad though, to see chern finally let loose and have his fun.

but people should really appreciate things a little more. but thats just the way life goes right. sucky

elaine is my BABE. hahaha i like admiring her from afar! hahahaa and see her swooshing ponytail :D hope u re feeling better lady, im going to make it a point to be more sensitive ya.

and the chipmunks won. and though i was screaming frantically like a mad ass, i regretted it later. chipmunks are after all not lunatics. and it was no biggie to win. and nothing to be that happy about. not when ur friends were dealing with shit. so there. i am really sorry for that :(



"you re really a bimbo, you dont even bother to read the newspaper, what kind of scholar are you"

He's No Fool

He is no fool who gives what he cannot keep, to gain what he cannot lose

He's no fool

He's no fool

Who gives what he cannot keep

He's no fool

He's no fool

Who gains what he can never lose

What if I gain the world and all that it's worth

And lose my soul in exchange

I will be a fool to lose it all

For what will soon pass away

I have one life, one life to live

So help me Lord, to wisely choose

He was no fool who gave his life on the cross

Who died the world to redeem

He paid my debt and set me free, and now I'm no more my own

No greater love could claim my life

To give my all I gladly choose

For what shall it profit a man

If he shall gain the whole world

And lose his soul

Though the cross seem foolishness

And it's ways the path of shame

I will take my place with Christ

And proudly bear his name

He is no fool who gives what he cannot keep, to gain what he cannot lose

No greater love could claim my life

To give my all I gladly choose

No greater love could claim my life

To give my all I gladly choose

because elaine and i were discussing which couples were cuter.

hee this entry shall be on


whose weddings i would like to attend.
dokays sounds a little bhb
self invite
but i think it would bE FUn :)

hee
1. sissy, seeing ur very own sister walking down the aisle with dad
heehee i betcha i would CRY. hahaha
and then also GOOD RIDDANCE, means i get the room all to myself
heehee kidding

2. sherry. cos i think her husband will be HOT, tall dark and handsome hahahahaha
and MAYBE i can be her bridesmaid (HINT HINT)

3. GRACE, cos her taste is so darn good. hee maybe she ll be at her wedding with her lawyer pantsuit :P

4. ANNACHENG, because her wedding will be magnificent. this im very sure. she'll have the prettiest dress. the most extravagant wedding banquet.

5. elaine, hee see reason for number four. (HAHAHHA)
but really, i think i ll be the proudest friend there.

6. zy AND st
hahahahaha omg
i ve never seen a couple , where both girl and boy are both so kind and sweet.

7. zy and caroline
my favourite hamsum couple. hehehe i think i would specially make my way there to drool at caroline.

8. Ugene+kellymelly
HAHAHHAA was telling kelly that she should insist eugene hands each of all their female guests a pair of jimmychoo's shoes as a doorgift or something
TEEHEE

9. cummarran + _______(fill in the blanks)
for i will tell him
see i told u, now gimme five bucks for the bet we made 20 years ago

10. keefy and aud
needless to say, this is a must attend wedding
i am self inviting myself for this one. because k insisted that he s not inviting me, for fear that i would embarrass him at his bigday.

11. CHERN's.
just because
i will lol
when the priest says
you may kiss the bride
and chern would do his classic kiss. (we know)

12. CHONG's.
because he COMPLAINED I DIDNT MENTION HIM and was wondering why
HEEHEE
and because he claimed that pretty girls end up with bastards.
so if his wife isnt pretty
he's a nice boy
and if his wife's pretty
he's a bastard :) hahahahah oops dont kill me.

HAHAHAH DOKAYS i ll update the list when i think of more. :D

DID I MENTION THAT I WANTED TO BE WEDDING PLANNER.
it was always my dream. lol. that dream may just come true some day =) =) =)

pardonmeimquizzical!

hahaha i so wanted to get this
green cos i was to be theodore
and cos there were squirrels on it
and they looked like chipmunks
hahaha but i got the black version for audrey in the end
its super nice. gold squirrels and all . REALLY PLEASED with my BUY :)
JB. full time bummer.
CHong stole me icecream
so sweeeet xf
wah my hamsum couple :)

Jesus gave them this answer: "I tell you the truth, the Son can do nothing by himself; he can do only what he sees his Father doing, because whatever the Father does the Son also does. 20For the Father loves the Son and shows him all he does. Yes, to your amazement he will show him even greater things than these. 21For just as the Father raises the dead and gives them life, even so the Son gives life to whom he is pleased to give it. 22Moreover, the Father judges no one, but has entrusted all judgment to the Son, 23that all may honor the Son just as they honor the Father. He who does not honor the Son does not honor the Father, who sent him.

hmmm the Father judges no one. serious?
lets check that up!
and this is all thats mentioned

But has committed all judgment to the Son: The Son has the same authority as the Father, including the authority to judge all. This is a prerogative of God only, and another demonstration of the deity of Jesus

strange strange. hee i must be taking it too literally.
33 Then the trees of the forest will sing,
they will sing for joy before the LORD,
for he comes to judge the earth.

1 chronicles 16:33

AHHHHHHHHh dokays im hungry.

If jesus is going to judge all of us at the end of time and if only He has authority to give life, His promise to escape this judgment must be credible because He is going to be the judge so He alone can determine who will be condemned and who will be saved.

AMEN!

hee was just throwing my suitcase back into the storeroom
and thinking about how chong laughed at me for packing so early
though i must insist that i wasnt packing
i was just throwing stuff in.

and i thought about how in london, december if im not wrong
i remember packing a month before flying back to sg as well
hee how excited i was
all the presents for everybody
all the new clothes to show off.
how i would pack when im feeling down or sian.
and how i would be so excited packing
then of how i would pack and repack each WEEK
to stuff more things in, or to rearrange my stuff

Heh heh
stupid things u do

:P
i think i should make full use of time left in sg.
a month
will be over in blink of an eye indeed.
and i shall spend more time with the fags
i realised i wouldnt be seeing them for quite long
and AH
later out of sight out of mind
hahahahaa

i know for dad n mom, its
absence makes the heart grow fonder
lol

dokays was a good lunch with c + m + d
although i wasnt paying attention
and feeling quite bored. just eating my kway chap happily.
tis a very amusing day i think

i tell you i tell you everything
why have i stopped blogging!

hahahaha
cos as stuart says
all of us have an addiction

and i think im addicted to facebook
hmm
not exactly facebook in particular
i think more like
wasting time, thats what im addicted to

i m addicted to bumming around!

hahaha reading old entries of ur blog, makes u feel quite sick actually
hahaha like eeek, u were so dumb so shit so stupid
hee but nonetheless, amusing, if y ou were to look back and decide that hey, at least u changed, and u prefer the new you now

and the favourite new hobby is MAKING EMOTICONS
hahaha which sucks cos the program sucks
hahahaaha
okay i suck

and the favourite new hobby yesterday was
playing diner dash
hahaha till dad decided
he d rather me be on the phone, then playing stupid games.

:D
imsmart. :)
i was convinced to bring my album to london
come to think of it, it can only hold only 300 prints
so why is it SO FAT.

and i took my suitcase out to throw things inside, just to see how much more clothes i can buy and yadda if the album would fit
AND somebody whoawhoahwhoahed ME

roar. i was TRYING, not packing
im not the one who s that eager to leave

heehee
dokays BYEBYE dad's awake! whoohoo

hee
we were supposed to play tennis but its raining now. oh dear
SIAN

:(

LALALA
dokays i reading my old entries. very very interesting. heehee dookies

HAHA OKAY DAD SAYS TO DELETE BLOG! byebye

hmm
not to be discouraged when rebuked by Him!

1 thessalonians 5

16Be joyful always; 17pray continually; 18give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.

19Do not put out the Spirit's fire; 20do not treat prophecies with contempt. 21Test everything. Hold on to the good. 22Avoid every kind of evil.

23May God himself, the God of peace, sanctify you through and through. May your whole spirit, soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. 24The one who calls you is faithful and he will do it.

Evil and deception can show itself even in a spiritual setting, so it is important for Christians to test all things. When the test has been made (according to the standard of God’s Word and the discernment of spirit among the leaders), we then hold fast to what is good.

When the testing is made, any aspect of evil must be rejected. This includes evil that may come with a spiritual image.

he idea behind the word sanctify is “to set apart” - to make something different and distinct, breaking old associations and forming a new association. For example, a dress is a dress; but a wedding dress is sanctified - set apart for a special, glorious purpose. God wants us to be set apart to Him.
i. The emphasis here is on completely: “The adjective (holoeleis), occurring only here in the New Testament, is a compound of holos, ‘whole, entire,’ and telos, ‘end.’ Its basic connotation is ‘wholly attaining the end, reaching the intended goal,’ hence has the force of no part being left unreached.” (Hiebert)



hee
heart, soul, mind and strengthh
body spirit

hohum.

The great Greek scholar Dean Alford described the spirit and the soul as thus:

· “The Spirit (pneuma) is the highest and distinctive part of man, the immortal.”

· “The soul is the lower or animal soul, containing the passions and desires which we have in common with the brutes, but which in us is ennobled and drawn up by the spirit.”

iii. Being the inner, immaterial part of man that may exists apart from spiritual life, the soul connects with the world through the senses of the physical body. It connects with God through faith, which might be called the “sense” of the spirit. We tend to think of the spirit being like the soul, but we may also think of it as being more like the body, the vessel of our interaction with the spiritual world.

iv. Because the soul and spirit both have reference to the non-material part of man, they are easily confused. Often an experience intended to build up the spirit only blesses the soul. There is nothing wrong with soulish excitement and blessing, but there is nothing in it that builds us up spiritually. This is why many Christians go from one exciting experience to another but never really grow spiritually - the ministry they receive is soulish.

AH. so enlightening hehee even sissy didnt know that. :P

dinner at helo, oleh oleh

waiting for the taxi to get us to bring us out for dinner.

haha charmychummywithfreshers boy
likes making me walk in circles before settling for a place to eat.
cos he thinks its really FUNNY.


not the face not the hair. ;p

one of the favouritest songs.

I can only imagine
What it will be like
When I walk
By your side

I can only imagine
What my eyes will see
When your face
Is before me
I can only imagine

Surrounded by Your glory, what will my heart feel
Will I dance for you Jesus or in awe of you be still
Will I stand in your presence or to my knees will I fall
Will I sing hallelujah, will I be able to speak at all
I can only imagine

I can only imagine
When that day comes
And I find myself
Standing in the Son

I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever
Forever worship You
I can only imagine

I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever, forever worship you

GOLF.
hahaha the noobs we are.
actually, i give up posting pictures
SO BORING.
go check out multiply or facebook. and they re quite boring too. hehee
think the videos are funnier

Do Not quench the Spirit

The sense of warning and restraint that the spirit gives comes to us in the most amazing ly gentle ways. And if you are not sensitive enough to detect His voice, you will quench it, and your spiirtual life will be impaired.

HMM

Whenever the spirit gives you that sense of restraint, call a halt and make things right, or else you will go on quenching and grieving Him without even knowing it.

here it says

Never become attached to anything that continues to hurt God. For you to be free of it, God must be allowed to hurt whatever it may be.

interesting. hee how this thingy popped up this very DAY
ARGH WHAT TO DO. hmpph


HAHA dokays will pray about it. and find my answers :)
shall be more disciplined abt bs from now on as well.
that way, i can prove to mommy!

yay!

a beach stroll after dinner!



hahaha daddy the insane man touching all our foreheads heehee

whatcha checking out
must be some hottie!