on some days
i hate the walk
especially to school

i slam the glass door behind me to embrace the cold.
in fronta me, there's this uber busy road
cars are always turning from all directions and i kinda get stuck
almost always
in the middle of the road

then i hit sainsbury, and then chonges' place where i like to look up to see if anyone's home,
and then that little turn to the alley
(today i walked past a car with a smashed window hahaha so funny.)

and then i make another dash across another busy road
i always look around to see if i can find familiar faces
and finally when i see a glimpse of school
then I AM HAPPY.

on walks back
its cold.
i tighten my scarf around my neck
and i like to think

today i thought of maurice and galvin
and how they just might squeeze into my tiny room with me
if they actually come visit.
but daddy just emailed saying mauzy might have changed his mind again
roar. those fickle monsters.

i thought of how i would bring them out to eat
and how i might ask chonges along. and how weird it would be
and i thought that was quite funny.

i hate the walk back too.
on days when im sad, i always start the walk thinking im going to pray the entire walk back
but usually other random thoughts disrupt my prayer.

i count down the streets
till i reach gloucester, then sains, then the hotels
and then home.
my phone's always on the side of my bag closest to my body, so i can feel if there's any vibration for incoming texts!

BUT
today
hee
i was so inspired

and i just couldnt wait to get home
the second half of the walk back
i was smiling.
my room looks different again!
hee hopefully a change in environment could motivate me to work harder
today has been discouraging.

looks like
the mugger in me, is -not- back yet.



hee and i just checked my phone
a missed call and 4 texts from chonges
asking what time i finish so he could walk me back
:( :(
life is quite funny
and sometimes life sucks a whole good deal.

that is precisely why
i always have to remind myself
how blessed i am to be in london studying
and how easy it is for me to fly home whenever i want.