right now, i miss mommy and daddy

of how daddy would do every single thing for me
and how he would nag a little for me to get things done.
now that dad's not here to do that every single thing for me,
he's worrying back home, of how i may not cope and stuff

dad, im really very thankful how you leave skype on the entire day for me, just in case im lonely
and how u can even point the webcam at the tv so that i can "watch maggi and me" or like the local news or the webcam at the house and the furniture just so that i would feel like im not far away from home.

of how mommy would skype with me even though i know she cant wait to play scrabble
of how she can point the webcam at their dinner so that i can remember how real food tastes like
of how she can nag at me to eat proper food
and not stinge on the essentials
to eat in school instead of rushing home to my shell in my room
to share my food with yi
to laugh at every dumb thing i say or do on skype

thank you mommy, i know its a lot of effort to keep the skype thingy ongoing. other families like do it once a week! we do it everyday! WHOO HOO
hehehe

basically, i just miss home so so so much, i dont remember feeling so shittty.
like whenever i hang up with fam or with joel, it feels so weird that they're going to bed while im still going to be up for a couple of hours more. its like we're living totally different lives and in totally different worlds.

and STOP USING THE WORD basically. fags, i dunno if u guys remember this,
but during sec one orientation, the stinky prefects were using the word basically so much heehee and now i just remember being in the evelyn norris hall,
cheering in that lowpitch shit
i remember the amphi theatre, where i felt so proud to be standing, clapping with the rest as announcements of how we won blahblah game / competition.

shit. i miss rg. i miss being extra fat and chubby! hee i think i was really happy then.

i miss rj. especially during those rainy days,
the old rj where we dived into the mud because tabi said so
where
i studied with joel before training,
i remember how my stomach growled for the first time in frnt of joel
he pretended not to hear
and i was so freaking embarrassed.

the new rj, where we studied in class,
with shoes off,
my first accidental fart in front of him again,
when i went oops
and when he couldnt stop laughing.

where the girls , esp jani and jean
would hang out in the canteen on extra rainy days to eat
and my nice special chilli
where i would scoot off with manu somewhere

where, on fridays, joel and i would run out of school to play,
and while we walk out, people are walking back to school for more lessons.


HAHAHAHA but dont worry folks, im okay. im just sulking doing my stupid essay
its taking ages to do. its so nice sometimes to think about the past u know
i dont know why im in such a hurry to get over with school life
itwont be long before
i reminisce about the past again.
dude.
hahaha yay its 5am and mauzy is online! byebye!