haha
church today was good
like how to cope with grief.
man and i dunno why. it so suited my mood. and i felt like crying at everything he said.
why do people always go before you
i cant ever picture myself having to go thru the loss of someone.

haha but yea. today i was comforted more than anything else as well.
he said
blessed are those who moan
for he shall be comforted

well at least i know im never alone when i have to go thru pain all the time.
what would i do without this comfort

i think i would just break down and die

hehe and #$^^%^$%#$ tan my backside
i laid there in the sun for an hour with my shirt covering my face. and MY TUMMY's still white. while the back's like a little darker. somethng is wrong. i mean i only swam half an hour. the SUN DOESNT LIKE ME.
okies. i better get down to doing PW.
stinks. tmr i will be a happy girl.

i tried to dream of my beach house.
but nothing came to my mind
and i couldnt fall sleep again.
either that or i always end up waking up and not being able to go back to sleep and that sucks.
cos usually when i keep thinking, i'll go back to sleep. this time. time just crawls. and i have black eyes all over again. hahaha not good at all.