haha i finished my interview say many many hours ago
hahaha
and the lady was so nice
but i dont know how i did
i hope i ddint screw it up
because i felt so small. and so young there
everyone else had make up on and stuff
and they looked 18
i looked 5.
so that kinda sucked
but itried my best to smile
hahaha
and stand tall.
as joel has always taught me.
and maybe i did okay
but she toold me it was highly competitive
sob. what are the chances man.
i guess i ll be happy if i get in, an di f i dont, thats fine, i ll stay in sg. yoo hoo.
save lives
deliver babies
hahaha
your babies sherry quekquek
your babies grace lim
your BABIES anna cheng

I don’t know how a dream can do so much to me

Well today , this dream did

I realized just how important the family means to me

That when I woke up, I just prayed and prayed. Prayed and thank God for teaching me so many lessons in just one dream

The dream is pretty vague now

Was about people jumping out of our suitcases continuously

Like we couldn’t kill them or get rid of them

And they wanted to get rid of us.

In a way, it was like a crisis for the family

And immediately, In the dream, we prayed out loud. We just prayed and prayed for courage for strength to deal with the problem. And we also prayed to God, prayed that evelyn and I could share as much as we know about God to the rest of the family.

It taught me a very good lesson.that I should never wait till the last moment to share this one very important life-saving message to the world. To my family and friends whom I love very much especially. You know, guys, when you read this, I hope it doesn’t put you off. When we try to share our beliefs, its not that we want to enforce them on you. Its really about us loving you so much that we want you to enjoy what we enjoy

You know. One thing I really believe is that God is so amazing that he makes even the fearful things unfearful. With god, nothing seems impossible. I don’t know how to make it sound so personal. But really, for myself, I believe that God has made me a much stronger person, whenever im scared, I turn to God, and like Im not scared any longer.

You know how like when we were young. When we re scared and stuff, our daddies and mommies seems to solve all kinds of Problem for us, it works the same way, but this time, God solves even more problems. Even BIGGER problems. Even IMPOSSIBLE problems. I don’t know how to explain it. But in my dream. I kinda saw a message, I read that we should never hesitate to spread God’s love to people we love. You know, I didn’t grow up in a Christian family although daddy s side were Christians. Like from what kongkong used to say to us, the bad experiences he had from Christians in his school who used to bully him, in some sense,we tooo developed a slight dislike for Christians. At school, Christian friends try to talk about their God, I asked them “don’t you feel like you re betraying your Chinese cultures and stuff ” its not about that

True, I know when I say I find much comfort in Jesus Christ, others might say their own Gods give t hem comforts too. But if you are non-believers of God, I really hope that you let me share more about my change in life and attitude after having to come know God. Haha I know its hard to believe in an amazing God who can make the day in what 6 days. Shite or issit 7. he rested on Sunday right. Its hard to believe that the human race is not so powerful after all. But I can assure you that in writing all these, im not bullshitting or anything. Im only writing it because you, my friends mean so so so very much to me.im writing this because I hope that some one will stumble upon it and at least read something out of it.

In my dream, I dreamt that Galvin was saved. He carried a cross with him everywhere he went. You know, it isn’t about the church going, about the cell going, the socializing and all that matters. Its about simply believing in God, in believing that Jesus Christ died for our sins, paid for our sins with His blood. Its about believing that our God is amazing, believing that He loves us and only wants the best for us because we are His children. I know it’s a dream for me, to slowly spread God;s love around. because im after all pretty new if you think about it. I accepted Christ when I was 12. and then along the way. Things happen. I maintained to my friends that I was a free thinker. And then again along the way, I changed somehow because evie fell sick. You know in hard times like that, besides really strong family support and wonderful friends sticking around, you still really need God.

U know its very true that when we re happy, we in good times,laughing, smiling, we tend to forget God, but when we re in deep shit, in trouble, God doesn’t say “hey you forgot me when you re happy, now I ll forget u ” its amazing how He chooses to be there for you all the way when you re down. Its amazingggggggg. How He never leaves us alone. Im bad at this, I know im a newbie. Haha but im just sharing my experiences. I hope that you don’t find it bullshit. But when I woke up and started praying. When I prayed the second time, tears just started rolling down my cheeks, teaching me how important it is to save love ones as well.

Please don’t get mad at me for sharing these okay. I m just sharing something from my heart. Really. I think God cures all heartaches, all loneliness, all frustrations. And I guess you have to believe in Him, to experience it for yourself!

I love you guys. I really do J

more 

gosu the baby! 

hee yea i know sherry s pictures are always so nice 

gosu and maurice on the plane! hahaa 

hahaah this was at the airport. i look fat. YUKKKKKKKKKKKKkk 

hee with the fagggy fag. so pretty right. hahaah i like!can see her tan lines la. 

haha this is the class. and shafia cut off at the end! 

hee the babes of 2S03d. the lady sitting on the far left is miss lo, our CT! haha. looks like one of us. 

hee manu who wore this low cut thingy. monish picked out the dress for her hahaha just kidding 

this is mr. lai our chem teacher who bent down for joel! hahahaha 

haha so this is how he looked like.
the aunty carrying all my barang for me! 

hee daddy says his jacket looks tight hahahahahahah just kidding. 

hee daddy says his jacket looks tight hahahahahahah just kidding. 

haha prom prom. stupid prom.
but this is my lovely DATE! 

hee. hello im online! at ithaca now. and it was snowing on the way here!
its a very nice place. although pretty dark already since when we got here it was like almost five. its like this small cosy town with NOBODY. its super mi ghty ulu. and we kinda drove past cornell jus t now. hahaha its nice!o oh boy. now it seems super hard to get in. sob. hahaha
yay
hi sherry i got your email! okay i ll look out for you. and maybe get to you again. haha but if you buy your shoes first, then email me quickly okay. hahaha although my internet connection here doesnt last long.
only hilton offers complimentary internet access! hee
okayyy how do i upload pictures"? hahaha
prom sucks
i was talking about ny.
cold cold ny!

hey sweeties. im off to ny tmr. let me know if you guys want anything from over there okayyyyyy. can email me. the gmail. one. adeeeebay@gmail.com hahaha cos i ll be checking that one. and i love you guys.
sherry the food was disgusting. and i hate prom. good thing you saved your 88 bucks. hahaha okay byebye darlings.

hee. i cant believe myself. this is so gay.
i actually spent 5 hours playing DINER DASH
hahaha the stupid mouse is not working and i had to use the notebook s mousey thingy.
whoah i can see my finger somehow twisted in a pretty awkward angle. scary!
.
okay its one thirty
i need to clear my computer. it has way too much shite
by the way
chicken little is really funny
man i laughed so hard.
hhahaha
and i was practically screaming
though we did get 2nd row seats.
HMMMMMMMMMMM

and i guess in some ways you may find me sick for using all sorts of ways of getting to know what i want to know.
but its not stopping me.
i wont stop until you come out of your shell and give me what i want
.
i seek your honesty
your love
your patience
your endurace
your concern
.
and when i dont get any of those
i fall
and even you cant pick me up.
.
you said you left but i see you there.
you can tell me how much its hurting you but you dont see my hurt
.
its way past 2 . i have church tmr. good night!
it was a good day out today
shall put pictures up soon
courtesy of sheerry
unlike grace who brings her camera out and refuses to ttake pictures with us cos she s lazy hahaha idiot