heee
i love netball
because i love EVERYONE THERE

BUT
I hate it that im so unfit
i almost died today
i felt like my heart would give way and collapse
or something
and i was so scared
i had to sit on the floor to rest or something
and everybody was commenting that i looked really pale.

WISH i was like vic who can wake up at 5tish in the morning to run for 2 hours at hyde park
crazy vic
heehee
and then gwen made me eat the krispy kremes so that i would have some sugar rush or something hahahaha
and after that one tiny donut
i was out to kill
elbowing ben , as he went crying to gwen that i was playing rough
that couple's hilarious :P
i cant believe they're 5 years our senior

that 2 boxes of krispy kremes
are in caroline's fridge right nowwww :) :)

oh and we checked out vic's place
hahaahah SO MESSY OMG
i am going to clean up her room seriously.
i had my huge hug from her today YAYY
damn funnyyyyy.

after i told her who got attached recently
she screamed
LAURA AND CAROLINEEEEEEEe
who were walking in fronta us
and the pigeons in front of us flew away
it was so so so funny

heeheeheee
and then lunch with laura and caroline
:)
can nu believe it
we walked all the way
from ravenscourtpark to hammersmith
to high street ken TO HOME
omg
we burnt more calories than when playing, me thinks. heheheee
yay eve is online
TOODLES

going for netballl brb hahahaha

yi is screaming in the phone to v who's in LSE,
ni na bian you mei you shuai de xing jia bo ren
something something
chou nan ren
blahblah
wo bu guan, ni gei wo zao yi ge chao ji da shuai ge
hahahahahaah GIGGLES
she s so cute.
i love her to bits

Put away your tears and your sleepy eyes
Put away that bullshit,
big boys they dont cry to their mamas
shell be back soon

Put away your raincoat and make your bed
Take another bullet right to your head
Were going on a picnic and we'll get there soon
She says maybe its over
He says theres plenty more fish in the sea
I say dont go away from me
Put away your dinner and have a snack

Tie your little brother up in a sack now
Were moving to the country and well get there soon (she says)
Pack up all the things that you dont deserve

Take another swing here comes a curve ball
I bet you cant hit it cause youll swing to soon
She saysmaybe its over
He says theres plenty more fish in the sea
I say dont go away Dont go away
Please dont go away from me

Take those damn pictures off that shelf
Put away your mommy you dont need her
I found you a new one shell be here soon

She saysmy God its over
He says I found another fish in the sea
I say why me? Why me? Why me? Why is it me?

what is the world coming to...............


zy says:
haha do the tilt ur head and jump around vigorously thing

zy says:
ok so does ur ear feel like its sloshing around when u walk

zy says:
EAR CANAL NEMATODES

ade. i'll play a song which never ever ends says:
hahah whats thatttttt

zy says:
haha no lah

zy says:
i talking cock

zy says:
theres no such thing


zy says:
okok...sorry

zy says:
i'm very knowledge-challenged

zy says:
in the ways of a medic

zy says:
but i can show empathy

zy says:
it must be tough on you.

the best thing that happened to me today
that ll pick me up again








i got a FIRST CLASS FOR MY EXAMS :)
yay

eve came online
decided to skype her
while adjusting my webcam
i spotted my cross hanging above my bed through the camera

i smiled
took it down
put it on
i feel FINE again

:)
i am HAPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY


say AMEN!

Sometime in our lives we all have pain
We all have sorrow
But if we are wise we know that there's
Always tomorrow

Lean on me when you're not strong and
I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long till I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

Please swallow your pride if I have things
You need to borrow
For no one can fill those of your needs
that you won't let show

Just call on me brother when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'd understand
We all need somebody to lean on

Lean on me when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long till 'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

Just call on me brother when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'd understand
We all need somebody to lean on

If there is a load you have to bear
That you can't carry
I'm right up the road, I'll share your load
if you just call me

Just call me when you need a friend

i recall a friend once saying

someday, i ll smile when you're with your special someone
and maybe laugh along
be happy when you found your special someone


will that day come when all jealousy subsides
and when i can be happy for others again

ah where s my role model

oh why am i such a fool
why do i care about somebody who doesnt care about me?

HEE folks, DO NOT SCREAM AT THIS POINT
learning learning to let go.
I AM JUST MISERABLE
NOT SAD
JUST MISERABLE

because i am so very bored


the song s replaying in my head

these are for mommy who wants me to take pictures everyday to show herrrrrr hahahaaha
poor ade no camera! :(

trust me
i'm a girl
i know. :)

i am boreddddddddddddddddd

:(

and miserable

why cant i tag my own tagboard.

roar

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy timesIt's you, it's you, You make me sing.You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,And you light me up, when you ring my bell.You're a mystery, you're from outer space,You're every minute of my everyday.And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,And you know that's what our love can do.

oh really?

am feeling sick
in that way-

but then again maybe its the fan and the room and the thingy in my ear
thats stuck
ARGH
i feel nauseous

this april
the biggest april fool's joke was played on me :)
my 20th april
hurhur

where is my cardreader
EVELYN BAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYyyy

hahahha
OH I FORGOT TO MENTION

today
at blahblahblah
i saw a mother CLEANING UP vomit on her baby

and i was like
I THOUGHT I LOVED KIDS
so i said,
if my kids throw up
and scream,
i 'll go
'MUMM MUMM, open wideeee'
then feed the vomit to the baby
hahahahahahaha

that would be cute
and my baby would be sent to social services
and yay
can have a new one!

hee
after i said it to j,
i realised how much truth there was in how
your parents will never forsake you
and family.

but then again,
know for sure who's family.

and
im glad i went for service yesterday.
thank you :)
focus on the goodness of God
when u face shit

i know God made these happen
i know that.
i know i shouldnt be fighting what has happened.

and
im going deaf
there's like water stuck in my ear,
if i raise my voice at you,
hee
do not. be alarmed!

LET ME CATCH A FLIGHT TMR!

"But love, i ve come to understand, is more than three words mumbled before bedtime. Love is sustained by action, a pattern of devotion in the things we do for each other everyday."

see ya sis
my turn now!
WHEEEEEEEEE

this is my rock, my beautiful baby big sister

who i have to take care of all the time

please dont dont worry and be sad for me

i hate it that you guys have to cry for me

i'm a strong girl :)
i'll miss you while u re at switzerland!

jem better take good care of you!

ah she's screaming behind me now to crawl into bed beside her

its hurting really bad
i know its inevitable
but im trying to move on
learning to let go.

its a friday and i have nothing to doooooooooooooooooooooo

this is why i havent been posting pictures

i cut my hair :(

i am a 14 year old AGAINNNNNNNNN

haha after the terrible nightmare
and no usual pacifying
and a rejected date
"lunch or dinner with me tmr?"
"gotta see"
i felt so awful

i kept my spirits high while chatting with elaine
who told me horredous stories of how her 7 year old cousin can slap, and hit with a book, his aunties and grandma
hahaha if my kid was like that,
i would totally force chilli into his mouth
(like what elaine's mom did to elaine's sister)
and then allow every relative to take his or her turn to slap him

HAHAHAHA
nah
i love children too much
my husband who would have to like kids just as much (and therefore is probably non existent), could discipline them and be the bad guy
and they could come running to me after their caning and stuff, and i ll sayang them! hahahaha

anyway i was laughing quite a lot in coffee bean with elaine
she's an angel
and not fair, she lost weight alr, while I AM STILL BALLOONED UP
and on the train home, a wave of sadness hit me
i have been spending every friday lonely at home, with nothing to do
omg im prolly going to drink myself silly tomorrow

hahaha no no
the verse just keeps popping up in my head

"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance"

and while showering,while struggling not to let sadness get me, i tried my best to force a smile :)
i love mom and dad for being there for me, doing their best to make sure i get well after being sick for so long, making sure i am haappy, after so much shit has happened to me.

how can someone ever make a person so SAD
sadness is a bad bad bad bad thing
i want to find my happyness heehee
pursuit of happiness WHEEEEEEEEE

i dreamt that i went to malaysia
and got some krispy kremes
for the people back in singapore!

then i realised
malaysia didnt have any krispy kremes
they only have dunkin' donuts
:(

i made sissy and mommy angryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

i have the coolest mama in the world
hahaha
again she cheered me up
brought me out for some cool dim sum
and coffee at star bucks
and
we were playing scrabble
and she came up with all sorts of rubbish words
thinking she can smoke me

mom and dad are awesome
opened a bottle of wine
that got me rashes
again.
and dad said "puppy pooper" instead of party pooper in his blurness.

and sis was awesome from church to the ride home
we were taking silly pictures like them

i like being silly
i have shitloads of fun when im silly.

eve thinks im a clown
and i thought hell yea,
clowns are happy on the outside
and crying on the inside
AND NOT JUST THAT
they're a little psycho
you know they like pretend to be clowns at parties but kill somebody or something
hahaha im very capable of killing right now :) :)
sadness channelled into disappointment, then annoyance(shit i almost typed annoyment) and finally a teeny weeny bit of anger
whoopeee

come on Lord, let me get over this
FAST

omg
wtf
omg
omg

sheralyn, the biggest clown, albeit the sexiest

FAGGOT sexy grace. whatuff she's the most daring person i ve ever known. tells u straight in ur face if she likes u or not. HAHA GRACE well done.

and silly

kua si mi

she's how long

yay got the stuff for thurs
sherry im bringing for u!


no conclusion
aye aye
i just feel worse
and made you feel worse

what im trying to make you understand
is that you shouldnt have rejected me.
when all i wanted was to be there for you, physically, not mentally.( i dont believe in that shit)
and how you wouldnt let me
because you dont trust me enough to not distract you
and because you're working as a team now
and im just not part of that team

so fair enough
i'll waste my time away
in the meantime
dont tell me about how you breakdown when u re frustrated
and how you treasure every moment with me
when you you you rejected me.
all because you didnt believe hard enough in me

i tell you
you deserve better
perhaps a girl who can understand
and who isnt so self-centered maybe.

Way Back Into Love

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past
I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love


I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

what a lovely calm beautiful song . HMM

http://www.iwantoneofthose.com/roboboyfriend/index.html
haha! just what i need now

im freaking fed up
with making adjustments
to suit the world
when the world should make adjustments to suit me from time to time

you either leave me alone, and disappear entirely from my life
or show up.

yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy my besties

silly sherry and her impromtu outing

and she's like how lucky i have no life

and we were like how lucky grace was at city hall hahahaha yayyyyyyyyy

:) :) and thats how we got treat from sherry

of some purple turtle,

some boston notreallyicedtea whatsthat cos it wasnt coke but cranberry

and some cool cool thingy with mint leaves and nice green stuffies in them. argh the loof life! hahahaha which was the coolest!

ok its gonna be my treat for drinks on thursday at sentosa :)

and we re going to have a picnic too! :)

i shall ask mommy to help me with sandwiches!

i love my friends! hahahaha

little gracie, hope ur essay was ok! thanks for joining us though you had sch at 9!

hee its bad when ur parents read ur blog, because they threaten you things like with "im going to set up a blog and post your ugliest pictures there" hahaha

by high and mighty DADDDDDDDDY who claims i put up his saggy face pictures hahahahaha uh oh he's going to kill me

and MOMMY LOOKS like one of us, young shit. :) we had a fat face competition

right now i have this sudden urge to slap this guy
who texted me this afternoon
telling me he got into an accident!
and its bad
and its near the cemetry where ppl are cleaning the stuffies there

and when i was so worried
"APRIL FOOL's"
"YOU #*(@#*)(@#)(*#)(#*$* dont talk to me"
"but its a tradition and u get tricked every year"
and
LAST YEAR IT WAS
"i got bird flu"

OMG I AM SO STUPIDDDD
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

on why u should nv drive with ur mama

because
she likes to tell you what to do
when to change lanes
and when to turn
and then she's indecisive, being the lady she is,
and she scream her lungs out when you move too slow!

hahaha hey
im the one who's supposed to be well known for my slow and reckless driving
ROAR.
kong kong probably had a heart attack today when i drove him home!
ok mommy, we all lose our patience! hahaha no u know daddy's not the meanest around! heehee
and my jerkiness became better :)
im going to get a thrashy car to thrash and perfect my driving
my little cutesey volkswagonhowtospell it
i want it in erm GREEN. pale apple green. ahhhhhhhhhh :) :)

come onnnnnnnnn i wanna GO OUT
argh im so freaking bored
ask me out ask me out!

yesterday was a very nice day
so sorry i missed u sherry! hee lets go out ok
oi thurs, WHOLE DAY OK
BOOK U GUYS for the WHOLE DAYYYYYYYYYYY
we re going for a drink right.
hee sherry's footing the bill.

and it was a good day because i bought such sweet tops im so in love with them
though mommy thinks its ugly. haha whats new
i thought they were mighty demure
hahaha and i just might melt hearts there.
hee kidding :)
but and elaine's little sister came to join us
and she's a very sweet thing
though she looks much older than us, with that gorgeous bob haircut.
i want alsoooooooooooo.
but I WILL control myself yes
.
and yay i bought my 3 steps in 1 clinique thingy finally.
after elaine's encouragement
hahaha
and her horrendous persuasive power for me to try everything i see.
yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
oh and bumped into cherie at far east! haha who claims she s not attached yet. that sweet thing

and then i met j quite late after he finished his studying at the library.
and we went for starbucks and to eastcoast,
but not before stopping at macs drive thru :)
FOR A WHOLE UPSIZED MEAL
omg
and there we were eating in the car
enjoying my fries.
slurps and licks lips.
and after like a couple of minutes, we were like WHERE s our fries.
and our nuggests were chomped down so fast.
SO UPSETTTTTTTTTTINGGGGGGGG
and my face is better.
thank God

i ll never take things for granted
i ve learnt the hard way
i will never ever take my family and my friends for granted
i've learnt how life is so very meaningless without these

sometimes u cannot help but wonder
how someone u felt so close to once, can be a huge total stranger

HAHA
i HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY
YET I cANT
but i
suddenly feel like i need to go back to london
to recharge myself
to chase away all the happiness
because somehow vic's always at the back of my mind
and how crazy little she, could cheer me up

FUNNY how this stranger could be someone i think about now, when im back home.
at how that closest person back home seems so far away.

BUT im still very happy to be home,
the family is all that i have now :)

and ade's self psycho-ing

i must be a good person
i will be a good person
i am a good person

welcome home elaine!
lets pig out!

ALL THE BEST SHERRY I SHALL TEXT U NOW. but im afraid to WAKE U UP. argh
ok i text u in the morning. is that useless?
ok i give up
im going to text u now!

YAY
poor adele doesnt know what to do
or where to go
but i love family

oh please dont let the reason be what i think it is.

how our room kinda transformed when accoms office requested to take a picture of our room :) yi and i were frantically throwing everything into the wardrobe

mauzy, we re all very proud of you :)

How aware are we of the danger of flattery?

Romans 16:18 speaks to us of who do not serve our Lord Jesus Christ, but their own belly, and by smooth words and flattering speech deceive the hearts of the simple.

Jude 1:16 speaks of those who mouth great swelling words, flattering people to gain advantage.

this is the woman who got secretary and im so proud of her

and i cant believe i let her treat me. hahaha hare and tortoise so nice. so expensive we re such pigs. yes u and me , elaine.

i feel..
i dont know
dry.

this is retarded.

i am a mugger in the library. yay i finally found a quiet corner. now tt i have my labtop i CAN MUG IN SCH yipeeeeeee. :) internet here is so darn fast im so excited

hahahaha I AM VERY SURE MOMMY and JOEL will never let me curl my hair ever.

this is us stuck in the lecture theatre because lectures were cancelled!